Dear Ja,
I just got off the phone with you and realized I had to do the mourning process all over again. Switching the news from Iraq to Afganistan made me have the same reaction a few weeks ago when I first recieved the news: A saddness I have never felt before. I felt I had reached acceptance stage so I was able to write on the blog about it. I realize if I only write on the blog when I am in 'unwaivering, firm, like a brick' state, I will have only a few posts. I'm realizing that this is just the beginning and there is no end to the roller coaster journey of emotions this military life is going to offer me. The best way to cope, therefore, is to express along the way and live each day for what it has to offer in it's fullest. I think a letter to you on a consistent basis will allow me to feel closer to you while we are apart. Sometimes that 'apart' feeling can still exist while living under the same roof. We will call this stage the pre-deployment stage. I hope when we are old in our rockers we will, as a result, be closer than we ever could have been otherwise. If we do, they whole journey of sacrifice, my love, will be worth it.
Luv, me
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